Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Getting Nervous and Happy Valentine's Day!!

As my big day get closer, I am starting to get nervous!!!

I know God is going to watch over me and Baby K, but when the doctor goes over all the "what if's and could be's" it has gotten to me.  I am sure nerves are apart of all this, but I was cool at one point.  I am trying not to get too worked up,  because I know that will not help at all.

Even through the nerves I am still very excited to see my little girls face and hear her cries.  I wonder every day what I am going to do when I hear that precious cry. I am so giddy!

Still working to get the house in tip top shape and doing all the things I do not want to have to think about later, so I have been busy on my swollen (sausage looking) feet.. LOL. The joys of motherhood. 

Well 2 ish days to go and I can see my Princess!

To  Baby K:  We will meet on Friday and you cannot believe how excited me and your family are to see you.  I know I have said this so many times in these blogs, but you are so loved! Everyone is having their own personal countdowns waiting on your arrival. Today is Valentine's Day, remember to give the love that you receive and sometimes the love you think you should be receiving, it may sometimes get hard but it will surely pay off!  A lot of times life will not be fair, but never let that change who you are and what you are to those whom you love.  No one is perfect, so even those whom say they love you the most may hurt your feelings, but speak up but do not hold a grudge.  Love freely!

Saturday, February 11, 2012

She is coming!!!

Life has been interesting and fun all at the same time. 

I  had the very best baby shower ever! I also had a surprise one at work! I have felt so much love for me and Baby K. Everyone has been so supportive. My baby shower was awesome, of course there is always one that causes drama and has to be the center of attention.  But even through that I was still super happy, giddy and emotional the entire day!

I have started the swelling really bad in my feet when I am working too hard. The body has a way of telling you to slow down. I am still going to the doc twice a week, which is not too bad.  I enjoy the fact that I get to hear her heart beating so often.  We did have one scare, she was not very responsive one day and I had to have some additional testing.  Me and my family were really nervous, but she was a'ok.  I have had a few braxton hicks contractions, but nothing too bad.  I think all the excitement of family and friends sent my body through a tail spin.

I had a growth ultrasound on the 3rd and she is still growing nicely.  She is measuring 6lbs 2ozs.  I am so happy she is healthy.  I hope I am not the only mom to be, that even at 38 weeks still worries that she will be alright. I still have minimal fears that something could happen to her.  I feel so bad for thinking it, because this has been such a blessed pregnancy.  So I ask for forgiveness and try to shake off the bad feelings.

Soooooo turns out I have to have a c-section. My cervix is really high.  I knew that because my insemination was very painful and took a long time because they had to get to my very high cervix. I never thought it would effect labor and delivery.  Well the cervix is high and the pelvic is small. And will make the descending process hard.  So, I am having a c-section on Friday, Feb 17th.  I am very excited and surprisingly not nervous, YET! I have never been hospitalized so I have no idea what to expect with IV, the stay, and such.  I am excited to know she is coming.  I can't  wait to meet her and see her face!

I stopped working  yesterday, which was a little bittersweet.  I am actually going to miss those folks :-). But I am glad to have the next week to mentally and physically prepare as much as possible to "officially" be a Mommy! This is my last weekend as a non parent, very surreal feeling.  But I am so ready for my little girl.  I am very scared of how well I will do with her and if she is a cranky baby. I know I will have a lot of support, but she is my responsibility and that is very surreal. Bottom line.... Ready or not here she comes!!! Stay tuned and please send up prayers for a safe delivery!  Thank you all!